Saturday, October 6, 2007

I miss him!

So I've been debating on whether or not I should post anything about JC leaving for Iraq because this is a very touchy and personal experience that is so hard to write, speak or even think about. I don't think I can explain the type of pain you feel when you see your husband do his best to pry his arms off of you and walk away from you and your soon to be son for the next seven to eight months. I know there are women out there who have been through this. Last year when JC came home from Iraq the first time, I saw a younger woman holding a sign that read something about her baby meeting the daddy for the first time and it broke my heart. I swore that would never be me....... but I realize now that Heavenly Father has a particular time table for each of us and I know He knows what we all need. The only thing JC and I can think of is how blessed we are to be having a baby. We are so blessed and I could never complain because we've been given so much. I'm not saying this doesn't hurt for both of us because it does, and every day without JC next to me hurts more and more but I do find my strength through prayer and all of those who pray for us.

I LOVE YOU JC!!! You are so amazing! Tucker and I are so proud of you!!!!

20 comments:

becky said...

oh my heart is aching and i am in tears...you are an AMAZING woman beth and our prayers are with you, jc and little tucker...

i love you!

Sara said...

My heart hurts for you. You have an amazing husband and I admire you both for your dedication to our country. It is because of people like you, our nation is a better place. You will be in our prayers.

Sara said...

I just read your post to Ben and he wanted me to tell you that your husband is a hero. We're thinking of you.

Anonymous said...

i am in tears- i don't know how u do it- but you are amazing- if you need anything at all- let me know! i am going to tal to ash and ter- and see if we can't get together.

Granum Family said...

I love you Beth! I'm in tears! Wish I was there to help you out but know that we are praying for you guys!!! You are all amazing!

Jessica Davis said...

I'm with the others--this post made me cry! Beth, you and JC (and Tucker) are so amazing! We love you guys and we have been thinking about you and praying for you so much. I can't imagine what you're going through, but I know you're going to make it. Let me know if I can ever do anything!

Anonymous said...

Ok I just cried, seriously! I love you! How are you doing? I need to call you.

Torrey said...

Oh Beth... I'm with everyone else too. That just mad me so sad. However, it also make me admire you and your family so much for how strong you all are. I am so thankful for all the amazing people like you who help to protect our country. You know we're here for you what ever you need. I love you guys!

Tiffani and Christopher Guymon said...

Beth, I can't imagine what you must be going through. Just remember that you have many friends and family that love you and are here for you. Please call me if you need anything. I tried to get a hold of you while we were in Utah, but i must have had your old cell phone number. Good luck with the baby and I am so sad that we did not get to meet up. Love you and please email me your current cell phone number so we can talk. Hang in there. LOVE YOU!

Tiff and Dave said...

Wow! I don't know how you do it! You have me crying...hard! Hang in there. You are such an awesome person with so much faith. Let us know when your sweet Tucker arrives.

Anonymous said...

You and your family are truly heroes. Thank you for the blessings that you provide to our country. I can't imagine what you are going through, but know that people are praying for you...even those who just stumble upon your blog. Good luck with your sweet baby.

Circuit Fam said...

I have now read that post 4 times and watched the slideshow even more. I think I am admiring not only your strength but allowing your strength to influence my life for the better, honestly it made me be a better wife to Chris as I realized the small stuff is just so trivial and not get caught up on it. Thank You for helping me! I hope Tucker looks just like JC and then you can stare at him all day,and time will go by faster.

Melissa said...

I almost started crying at that thing up at Sundance when you told me he was leaving! I have had your family in my thoughts and prayers ever since.
You have such a great perspective - you are amazing. You are both heroes.

Trisha said...

You are an amazing person to be able to deal with everything so well. I am honored to be your friend because instead of talking about making a difference, your family is doing it. I'm always thinking about you eventhough I never get to see you!

Melin said...

We pray for all three of you everyday.

Anonymous said...

Beth your awsome and I don't think I've ever thought more about our troops then I am know. My prayers will be will JC EVERYDAY when you get an address where to send a package to him let me know and what I can send him. I would be a great honor to help JC in anyway.

Ammon and Becky Sullivan said...

I guess I am like the 99th person who read your update and had to resort to tears! Beth I love you too and am so impressed with the strength that you have! You really do have a great outlook on life. Hang in there and call any time if you need anything!
Bex

Matt and Kay Jones said...

Beth you are such a sweetheart! Hang in there while JC is gone... I am so excited for you and little Tucker. I miss you like crazy and can't wait to see you again. In the meantime, keep in touch. Love ya!

ash said...

Beth-I stumbled upon your blog and recognized you from BYU and Belmont. I just wanted to tell you how much I admire and respect you and your husband! Your little family will be in my prayers!

Douglass Family said...

WOW Beth! You are amazing! I don't know how you do it. Now that I am pregnant I am not only emotional, but can only imagine what you are going through. I can't imagine having to do this on my own. Please let JC know that he is in our prayers, as well as you and little Tucker!
Love you guys!